That feeling of discomfort that settles in the pit of the stomach, that invades our mind when we finally try to fall asleep. That feeling of being afraid of doing things as trivial as going outside or going to work. Living with anxiety and depression can be hell and people who suffer from it know it.
That feeling of discomfort that settles in your stomach, that invades our mind when we finally try to fall asleep, that feeling of being afraid of doing things as trivial as going outside or going to work. Living with anxiety can be hell and people who suffer from it know it.
Anxiety is the combination of thoughts and own physiological reactions, related to the fear of something bad happening that is beyond our control.
Living in darkness…
Living with generalized anxiety is like having the catastrophe radar constantly on. You may feel that you can never rest from worrying and that you can hardly ever really feel safe. As soon as an unsettling thought arises, you feel the need to clarify it immediately. Feels like you need to avoid all emotional distress and have a hard time living in the moment.
Is normal living in constant uncertainty, one day you are fine, another day you have no desire to do anything at all, you’re afraid of doing things because you feel that you are not good at anything, you live and you are worried about what others think; you are afraid of not being approved, you do not feel that you are worth it, that you are enough.
Living thirsty and craving for affection, that’s why when you finally think you find someone you cling to such a way and your fear of abandonment is so great that you become a pleaser, you cancel yourself completely and your needs become nothing because you only care in pleasing and giving everything to that person just to keep them by your side.
Feeling trapped…
You live trapped in fear, negative thoughts, you isolate yourself from everything, everything is too big for you, the worst thing is that you are ashamed to talk about the subject with your close ones since even in these modern times this subject is still taboo and you don’t want being told cowardly, exaggerated, that you want to draw attention when in reality you live in a constant struggle every day to get out or survive that world of shadows.
Many times you don’t feel like getting up and doing your tasks, with your daily routine, you want to cry, scream, you are not as strong as everyone thinks, every day is hard and it feels horrible to vibrate in the shadow, in sadness, a chronic sadness that accompanies you, spending time looking for help on the internet, listening to audios on YouTube so you can raise your spirits, your self-esteem and feel a little better, but you go back and fall into a dark hole, you have to start over all the inner work you’ve been doing.
It is common for you to present other mental or physical ailments simultaneously. It can be obsessions, eating disorders or depression, or constant pain in the abdomen, back, or shoulders. You may feel dizzy and disoriented and have an easy time falling into tears.
How affects your life…
Having sleeping disorders and sensitivity to stress, separations, and situations, where you could lose control, are normal situations you live in daily. Feeling tired and weak most of the time cause you can’t eat or sleep properly because your mind never stops.
You are often concerned with everything from near catastrophes to the situation in the world. Almost anything can be perceived as a threat and you may feel a huge need for security. Constant and sudden stress and anxiety could lead to the funnel of burnout or depression. The more space anxiety takes, the less space is left to live the life you might want to live.
You don’t wanna go out, socialize, meet new people, being involved in new activities, it may sound funny but you are so afraid of sabotaging the interpersonal relationships that you actually end up sabotaging them.
your thoughts, your mind, become your worst enemies. it is very exhausting to live in that constant struggle inside.
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